Making the Girls Room Pretty

My husband and I have been working like crazy people over the past week to re-do our girls room. Bridgette and Emelia share a room. There is an age difference between them so we don't know how long we would like them to share a room but for now they are LOVING it. Emelia doesn't sleep half as well when Bridgette is not here and they have a blast together.

Well, Bridgette was on spring break for last week and she went up north to her dads for the whole time. We decided to surprise her and re-do their room. It was hard waiting for Bridgette to come home and see everything. I even had Brad go and get her from her dads because we both know I would blab and tell her about it.

This was the room before. Sorry its kinda not a good pic. We of course forgot to take before pics when we started but thanks to Zillow we were able to find at least one pic from when they put our house for sale.

Our whole house had this bland tan walls. It is gross. We definitely painted as many walls as we could. The only places now that are left in that color are the hallway and our front living room/dining room. We will repaint those soon too. We have been here for a year now and finally had time (and an idea) to do the girls room. I didn't know I loved decorating as much as I did. My back hurts and some things were ridiculously hard to do but in the end it is worth it 100%.

That picture only shows a portion of the room but our after pictures show a lot more. Trust me, you are not missing out by not seeing the rest of the room in that picture. Now I wanted to show you what the room looks like now. We will start with Bridgette's side.

I got most of the things for her side from the dollar store. I cannot say enough how much I absolutely love the dollar store. It is one of my favorite places to be. Without sounding trashy, the dollar store is my Target lol. Well except the "dollar" stores where not everything is not a dollar. Those just make me sad. Seriously, when you use the word dollar in the name and call it a dollar store don't have things that are for $5. That is what 5 Below is for. Anyways, the Hello Kitty wall decals we got from Menards a while ago. The B I also didn't get from the dollar store. I made that myself with a wooden B from Michaels, silver paint, and some ribbon decals. That was the most expensive thing in the room and it was only around $6. The top wall hanging we had from a while ago so we didn't get that from the dollar store and same goes for the chandelier. Speaking of the chandelier....

Yeah, that's right. I hand made this thing! It was an absolute pain in the butt and I will probably NEVER make another one as long as I live but in the end it was so worth it. Especially since Brad told me I wouldn't be able to do it. Excuse me! I am an American woman, we are fantastic with crafts. Or failing at crafts but whatever. Hello, home of Martha Stewart here. In all honesty if he would have never said I couldn't do it, I might have given up on it. I'm stubborn and sometimes that stubbornness pays off. Needless to say my amazing husband was extremely impressed with my crafting skills. If you want to make your very own chandelier and bling out the paper lantern you can find my tutorial by clicking here. 

Now its time for Emelia's side. I kept Emelia's side a little less glamorous and more flowery. I figured the glam side was perfect for a Hello Kitty lovin' 7 year old and the flowery side would be better for a sweet two year old. Here is Emelia's side.

I got the flowers, the pictures, and the paper lantern from the dollar store. For the paper lantern I just hot glued flowers and pink butterflies that I got from the dollar store to it and hung it with pearl beads. Super easy. The E I did the same exact way as I did with the B from Bridgette's side. That was also super easy. The frames I got from Meijer for under $2 a piece. I couldn't even find the frames that cheap at the Salvation Army. They were white and brown so I decided to paint them with purple craft paint. Two of them when the paint was still wet I decided to sprinkle glitter on them and I love the way it turned out! 

My husband found pink and purple valances and I think it really pulled the room together. Bridgette picked out the color of the room and we really love the pink. It is soft and girly and best of all not boring tan! I wanted to do a before/after collage. Just so you guys can see the difference.

It is such a difference between the two! Now its time to see Bridgette's reaction. 

I love this picture. It shows how much in love she is with the room. She was nothing but smiles and giggles. We also got a video. 

I love how excited the girls are. Really just Bridgette is excited and Emelia is copying her but it definitely made us feel good about how much work we put into it. I am really proud of how it looks. Hopefully it will stay as pretty for a while but I guarantee it will be a mess by the end of the day! If you are re-doing a little girls room maybe you can get some inexpensive ideas from what we did. I know we spent less than $100 on the whole room including paint. I think the paint is what cost us the most and that was around $40. The rest I want to say we got for around $30.

Peace and Love, 

The Comparison Game

You never really know how much you do or say something until your children start doing it. Some things are a wake up call immediately, like swearing for instance. The moment your little one utters those horrible words you know that you need to stop. Some things creep on you slowly and they are little things you notice overtime. I never knew how much I compared myself to others before my eldest daughter started to compare herself to others.

At school if her friends won something the first thing she would say is " I didn't win anything, but they did." She compares her hair to her friends and how tall she is. She compares her clothing and the things her friends have and she doesn't. It makes her miserable comparing herself to her friends and classmates. At first I thought it was just her being a kid. Now I realize she is getting that from somewhere and I notice how much I do it now.

I compare my hair to others and wish I had easy to manage hair. I compare my clothing to others and wish I could have an expensive wardrobe. I compare the size and look of my house to other peoples and think what I could do with just a little bit more room. I compare my stomach and legs to others. The fact that I got cursed with stretch marks on my stomach and my legs have horrible varicose veins while other people were lucky that they didn't get that from pregnancy. I compare my business to others and think of how well they are doing and why am I not doing that well? I am friendly enough, and I love what I sell enough? I am knowledgeable enough, why are others making higher ranks faster than I?

I thought that it was good to compare myself to others, because that gives me a goal to strive for. That was until my daughter started to do it. Then I realized that it makes the goal look unachievable. It makes you want to give up quicker because you aren't in the place that others are. Whoever made the quote "comparison is the thief of joy" has it right. When we compare ourselves to others, what we do have seems less. It seems like our life is less than others lives are. It makes us feel sad, not happy. Most of all when we compare ourselves to our friends, it lessens our joy for what is happening in their lives. You want to be happy for them but you can't because of your own jealousy.

I know I will always compare myself to others in one way or another but I want to be happy with what I have. I need to be happy with what I have. I need to be happy with everything that God and my husband has provided me with. There will be down times in my life while others have up times. The thing is those same people will have their down moments too. Everyone succeeds at some things and fails at others. That's the way of life.

I should be happy that I even have hair, because some sadly don't due to illness or a condition. I should be happy that I even have clothing. Some people cannot afford to have as much clothing as I have. My house fits my family perfectly in it. Why do I need a bigger house? So that my family can be farther apart? I have great neighbors and a nice house. The fact that I have stretch marks and varicose veins mean that I was able to give birth. I am able to have three wonderful children of my own. Some people don't get to have that. I am doing well on my business. No I am not at the top, but I am also not at the bottom. Most of all I get to share with others something I love, who needs to make the next rank when you have passion. It is also helping out my family in so many different ways, for that I will always be grateful.

Sometimes it is hard to be appreciative of what we have. It seems like a lot of people have the grass is greener on the other side syndrome. They think if I could make more money I would be happier. If I have a bigger house I will be happier. If I am with this person I will finally be happier. If I take this new job I will finally be happy. Nine times out of ten those things will not make you happy. Sometimes they even make things worse. I can think of another quote that says "the grass is greener where you water it." So why don't we start watering the grass that we own?

I know that I am going to look at what I do have more than what I don't. If not for me, then for my children. I need to lead by example for all of my kids. If I want my kids to act or be a certain way, then I need to be that way. It wont be easy but I know it will be worth it. Being kind, generous, and happy for others is where joy comes from. We can be happy for others and what they have, even if we don't have it. We can feel joy helping others achieve goals that we ourselves want. I want my children to know that. I want my children to have a servants heart. I want myself to have a servants heart. If we spent more times just caring for others instead of wishing we had what they have, this world would be a better place.


Peace and Love,

Finding the Perfect Frosting

Okay, so my son's first birthday is this month. I wanted to try to make his own cake but I know my culinary skills are not up to par, plus I don't have the time. Thanks Kroger for having my back on that one! I do want to make cupcakes though since, well, cupcakes are easy. You make the cupcake (from the box, I am no Betty Crocker) and then you can frost them in a matter of minutes. I think I can handle that. The thing is the frosting that comes in containers...not impressive. The last time I made a butter cream frosting it ended up tasting like sugared butter. Not tasty at all.

So, I have been doing my research and now and there are a couple different things that you can put in a butter cream frosting. I will be testing out multiple different things in my frosting to see which one tastes the best. To me, the best is Meijer like frosting. It is delish! For my first recipe I decided on simple recipe that I kind of made up myself. Don't let that mislead you though, it actually tasted good. Is it perfect? No, but it is tasty. It also did not taste like sugared butter and tears. That's a step in the right direction! Okay so here it is and I will go step by step on how I made it!

Ingredients:

1 cup Crisco shortening
1/2 cup butter (I choose real butter and did a stick)
4 cups powdered sugar
1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract (I choose the real stuff, not imitation)
1/3 cup half and half

It's pretty simple to do it just takes a little bit of time to throw it all together. First I started with the shortening and the butter at room temperature. I put them in a big bowl. 

 I creamed them together. Creamed is a fancy way of saying I blended them together. I started blending them at a lower speed then once they were blended pretty well I did a quicker speed. I blended it for 4 minutes. Yes, I know that is a lot of time but I really think its worth it. 

After that I added the vanilla in. Then I did more blending. You will be doing a lot of blending with this recipe.

After that I started blending in the powdered sugar, I blended it in 1/2 cup at a time. After each 1/2 cup I made sure to blend it in really well. It helps if you can use sifted powdered sugar. I personally didn't sift mine because I'm lazy. Oh and I don't have a sifter. So there's that. 

After all the powdered sugar is well blended you add in the half and half. I added it in a little at a time to make sure it was the consistency I wanted. 

I did end up adding a little bit more vanilla, half and half, and more powdered sugar to taste. I think I did a half cap-full more vanilla. I have no clue how much more half and half or powdered sugar I added. It was not very much though. If you wanted to add a little salt to make it not so sweet you can, I would only do a little bit and add it to the half and half and let it dissolve a little bit.  After it tasted pretty good to my standards I frosted my cupcakes. 

It frosted 24 cupcakes and I still had a cup or two left. I think it is plenty enough to frost a decent sized cake. If you wanted to color it add the food coloring at the very end. I hope you like this recipe. Let me know what you think!!

Peace and Love, 

Scary World We Live In

Have you seen the news lately? It is terrifying the world we live in. A woman cuts a baby from its mothers womb, a mother decapitates her baby, two children's remains were found in their mothers freezer, and very close to my house another store clerk was shot dead in his convenience store. I know bad things happen all the time and they have been happening for quite a while. It just seems like lately things are getting out of control! The children in the freezer and the convenience store owner were both from Michigan and within an hour away from me. The convenience store in which the owner was shot is about 5 minutes away from me. This is the second shooting within the year that we have lived here that was in my city.

I know what a lot of people are saying. The world is a horrible place and the fact that a lot of people don't follow God anymore is the reason. That may be true but I personally know some people who don't believe in God and they are good people with morals. Just because someone doesn't believe in God doesn't make them not have morals. I do wish more people followed Jesus and his teachings but that is their choice to make, not mine. There are people that do bad things who are Christians. I know that people are saying the devil is running rampant. The fact is satan might have a part in this, but these are humans committing these acts. I think satan gets blamed for a lot of things that he only has a small roll in. Yeah, he might be that little voice whispering in the background but the fact is these people made the choice to do these horrible things. They were not being possessed into doing it. It was their choice.

So, because I need a little positivity today I decided to look up 5 people that are doing good around the world. I truly believe for every evil person out there there is at least 5 good people. I want to see the good in the world and believe that this world has an enormous amount of goodness to it. There are very wonderful people out there that are caring, compassionate, and all around good people. So, I hope you can read this when you are getting sad and afraid of this world and it helps to create some positivity for you too. I am an optimist at heart so I really like to see the positives instead of the negatives.

Amazing Person Number 1: Amanda Plunkett

I decided to start with one of my friends that I met through church. I told you about her heartbreaking story in an earlier post in my blog and I feel like she is the type of person you need to read about. If you want to read my blog post about her story please click here. She took her heartbreak over losing her baby and have helped out so many other families. Amanda Plunkett you are such a bright star in this world and I am so happy to know you. She makes care packages for families that have lost their babies. The hospital that she had her son at also now has something called a cuddle cot thanks to her. A cuddle cot is a refrigerated bassinet that allows the parents to keep their baby in their room with them instead of being sent to the morgue. Owens Gift now provides its care packages for numerous hospitals around Michigan. If you want to learn more about Owens Gift please click here.

Amazing Person Number 2: Lee Jong-rak

You might have already heard about this amazing person. There is a documentary that is about him and what he is doing called The Drop Box. Lee Jong-rak is a Pastor in South Korea. He had created something called a baby box after seeing how many orphaned babies are just left on the street to die. A baby box is a metal box to place unwanted babies. Inside of the box has heating lights and a thick towel to cover the bottom to keep the baby comfortable. When a baby is put in the box a bell rings. After the bell rings Pastor Lee, his wife, or another staff member come to move the baby inside. From what I have read about Pastor Lee, he has saved 652 children. He is legal guardian to 19 children, including two of his own. This man has so much love to share and he is another light in this world.

Amazing Person Number 3: Chris Rosati (Also Anna and Cate Cameron)

Chris Rosati suffers from ALS or amytrophic lateral sclerosis but that doesn't stop him from being an all around good person. While eating at a diner in North Carolina, Chris gave two sisters he saw eating $50 a piece and told them to do something kind. The girls names are Cate and Anna and what they did with the money is amazing. The girls sent the money to a village in Sierra Leone to host a feast to celebrate being and remaining Ebola-free. This is just one thing that Rosati has done. In 2014 he caught the attention of Krispy Kreme Donuts by saying he wanted to "steal" a donut truck to hand out free donuts in his hometown. Krispy Kreme sent him a cruiser and he was able to hand out free treats for a day. He also started a nonprofit called Inspire Media which created Big Ideas for the Greater Good or BIGG. What BIGG does is challenges kids to come up with ideas that make a positive impact on the world. Chris does so much good for this world and the fact he is inspiring children to make a positive difference is amazing!

Amazing Person Number 4- Ray Umashankar and his daughter Nita

For this amazing person you get two for the price of one! This daddy-daughter team are changing the lives of women and children that have been affected by the sex trade industry in India. The organization they made is called Achieving Sustainable Social Equality through Technology or ASSET India Foundation. What they do is help educate these women and children by teaching them computer and conversational English skills. They partner with non-profit organizations in India to leverage relationships with the sex-worker community and help these women find jobs. Recently they have made sanitary pads available to girls in India so that they can stay in school! They are doing fantastic things for people that have been through a lot of trauma and have a lot of negativity surrounding them! They are changing these women and children's lives!

Amazing Person Number 5- Alex McKelvey

This amazing person is only 8 years old! In a year Alex performed 600 acts of kindness in honor of her late grandmother after her family performed 60 acts of kindness over the span of a year to celebrate her grandmothers 60th birthday. Some of her acts of kindness have been giving out laundry kits with soap, leaving quarters in candy dispensers, and helping to renovate the Youth Center in Lakewood, Washington by helping paint and collecting donations. These are just a few acts of kindness that she has done. If you want to see all of her acts of kindness her mother documented them on Instagram. Her user name is @actsofflowingkindness and she uses the hashtag #FORLINDA. Alex is just getting started too. She wants to do thousands and even millions acts of kindness. This little girl brings so much hope to future generations and my only hope is that many more kids learn a thing or two from her!


Those are just 5 (okay, a couple more than 5) people that are making a positive difference in this world. There are hundreds, thousands, millions of people doing wonderful things. Some people are doing small things and some are doing large things but each is making a positive impact in this world. There is a quote out there that says "Believe there is good in the world" and some parts of the quote are highlighted to say "Be the good in the world." So, my question to you is what good things are you doing to make this world a better place?


Peace and Love,

11 Months

Today my little man is 11 months old. I cannot believe he is turning a year old next month! I mean, wasn't he just a newborn and now he is almost not an infant anymore. Now he is pulling himself up and causing mayhem. He says ba-ba, ma-ma, and da-da along with a whole bunch of other words. He can wave hi and bye. It seems like just yesterday he was a little 8lb 4oz boy and now he is as big as his two year old sister. Some days it seems like its easier to carry her around than him.

These past 11 months have been absolutely crazy. The joy of having a newborn turned into my baby has to have a major surgery in a couple weeks. That turned into meeting with various doctors and meeting multiple people that made sure he was going on the right track. Instead of just enjoying having our little boy we had to worry about him constantly. I had to worry if he was on track developmentally and then I had to worry about the complications that may come with surgery. I had to worry that we might not be able to celebrate a first year birthday with our little boy.

With all the worrying I did, I forgot to do one thing. Enjoy him. Enjoy his first words. Enjoy his little grins. Enjoy it when he learned how to crawl. Enjoy him saying ma-ma for the first time. Now don't get me wrong I took joy in all of those things but it was different than my other kids. The joy I felt was more of he was meeting his milestones. There was always this worrying that he might be delayed in some way so when he did what he was supposed to I was overjoyed. The thing all the doctors told me was to enjoy him, and I wasn't able to enjoy him in the way I wanted to. Even our craniofacial surgeons nurse (her daughter had craniosynostosis) told us to not worry and just enjoy him. It was just hard to do with constant reminders of what we were going to have to go through.

Now he is 11 months old and the surgery is behind us. There may be surgeries down the road but they wont be anything like what we had to go through. We DO get to celebrate his first birthday and it will be a major celebration. I am thinking over the top, but we will see what my husband thinks of my crazy ideas. I am making it superhero themed because the fact that Eli went through so much in his short life and still is a smiling happy baby makes him a hero. I swear these cranio babies have super powers. They light up rooms and are so strong. Their smiles and giggles are contagious!

I wouldn't give up what we have gone through in the past year. I know it sounds weird but I really wouldn't. We have met amazing people that will always have an impact on our lives. We get to spread the word about this rare condition and be able to talk to others that are going through this. We get to help support and show love to others. We get to brag about how strong our little boy was and what he has overcome. We get to HELP people. It is an amazing feeling to help others. The people we have met through this journey we will always cherish. We have become stronger through this journey and have learned to never take things for granted. Most of all we have learned to TRUST GOD. Sometimes it was hard for me to have faith, but in the end faith was what I needed most.

Just because my son already had his surgery doesn't mean that we don't have to do anything anymore. I have to take him to physical therapy twice a week for torticollis. Next month I have to take him to an ophthalmologist. He has to wear his helmet for another two months so I will have frequent visits with them to do any adjustments. A nurse still comes to our house once a month to track his development. It feels so good not to have to worry about having surgery though. There is now a peace in our household that we didn't have before. On this side of cranio our future looks so much brighter.

I am so happy that God decided to bless Brad and I with Eli. I am even grateful for all the struggles we have had. There are so many wishes I have for Eli and I have so much fun dreaming of his future. I love to dream what he is going to be like and all the great things he will do. Even though I wish this year could have slowed down I am so grateful for it.

I am so grateful for little cuddles and being able to have him fall asleep in my arms. I am so grateful for our little boy and all the mayhem and love that comes with him. 

Peace and Love,

Complete Randomness

This post is going to be very random. I have a ton of thoughts going on in my brain right now so I am just going to spill it all out on here. Here we go:

Random part 1:

Remember in my last post how I said we were having issues and asked you guys to pray for us? Well prayer worked! I am still not ready to completely tell what happened but needless to say everything turned out for the best. All I will say is it is sad when people use your kids to get to you. My husband and I are not perfect parents, but we do our best and our kids are in good hands. We would never ever (EVER!) do something to harm our kids. Enough said about that. 

Random Part 2:

On Wednesday we had a follow up appointment with Eli's surgeon. He is doing fantastic! They felt his head and was very surprised to find how hard it is. My husband joked "yep, just like his mom" and I just had to agree, not happily though. I am super hard headed sometimes but in this case it was a GREAT thing! We have to wear his helmet for another two months but then he will be helmet free by summer! We don't have to see his surgeon until next year for his 1 year follow up! He is right on track and we cannot thank God (and you guys for the support and prayers) enough. Oh and his hair is growing in really well now and his scar is getting less and less visible! I have been putting on a mixture of vitamin E, coconut oil, frankincense EO, lavender EO, and tea tree EO to try to help it heal and fade. I am really bad with remembering to put it on but I try to do it at least once daily. Here is a pic of it:

Random Part 3:

Eli's first birthday is coming up and I am so excited! My friends are helping me come up with ideas for a superhero party. I figured he is a little hero for everything he has been through (and still is the happiest baby ever) so why not have a super hero party! After the party I am going to take the decorations we come up with and decorate his room with them! I really like to reuse things as much as possible so I thought that was a great idea! I also want to try to make the cake and desserts myself. I know I can make cake balls pretty well. My MIL got me a cake decorating kit a couple years ago for Christmas so I want to actually use it (sorry Mom! I really do like it!) and make a cake and maybe some sugar cookies too. If anyone has any sweet recipes please let me know! Also if anyone that I know wants to be an official taste tester, uh please come on over and steal some of these goodies I am making. Please, before I end up gaining 100lbs. I will probably do another post just on his birthday and what I do. If I get really crafty I will post some tutorials on how to do it yourself. Yay!

Random Part 4:

Okay, so I know I talk a lot about God in my posts. I was reading through them and I saw that I do post at least something about God. When something is important to you, you can't help but talk about it. God is VERY important to me. God has always been in my life and I have always believed in him but I never put him as #1. My kids were always #1 and God was on my list of top 5 but he was near the end of that list. My life showed that. I did things that I am not proud of and made many mistakes. I still make mistakes but I do notice that once I started to put God as #1 my life has gotten so much better. I still have my ups and downs but I am proud of who I am today, which I couldn't always say that in the past. I post a lot about God because he is important to me. Sometimes I start out not even meaning to post about God but then I always do. I am not trying to shove my beliefs down your throat at all though. You have your own choices and there will be no judgement from me. If you do ever want someone to talk to though, I am here. 

Random Part 5:

This will be my last bit of randomness for today. I am so happy for the support I have gotten for Caring For Cranio. Honestly, when I started it I didn't know if it was even something I could do. I felt a need to want to help out but I didn't know how many people would be behind me on it. I am so thankful for my family and friends that took my crazy (and way overzealous) ideas and was behind me 100%! I have started to receive some homemade goodies to put in the care packages and I have two Southeast Detroit hospitals that are interested in getting my care packages! I still have a long ways to go with them and I still have to get some supplies to put in them to make them complete but I am so happy to those that want to help. I get carried away sometimes (okay, a lot of times) with what I want to do and I have BIG dreams for Caring for Cranio. I am just glad I have some help to make those dreams a reality. I really want to help these babies and families in any way possible and I believe with a little bit of help I really can. I just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone that has supported me in this venture. It means so much to me that so many of you have my back in this! I am working still to become a 501(c)3 but it takes some time, and a lot of money. If anyone has any ideas of fundraisers I can do please let me know! 

As always thank you for taking the time to read my crazy posts. My husband pointed out the other day that some wording that I use is weird and sometimes my post don't always make sense. I guess just like I am weird and I don't always make sense lol. Thanks for reading anyways! ;-)

Peace and Love,

Acts of Worship

Hey hey hey! I am so sorry I haven't been able to post. Life has just been crazy and ridiculous lately. The Beaumont job didn't end up working out so I am going to stick with being a stay at home mom and oil crazy person for right now. God has a plan, this I am sure. I don't know what it is but one day I will realize everything that has been going on, has been for a reason.

We are also dealing with some family issues right now. I am not going to say what they are, but if you could say a little prayer for our family I would really appreciate it. I might tell you guys about it in the future but right now, I am just not comfortable with it. We are all healthy. Outside forces are really trying to break things apart for us. I know God is there with us and he will guide us through this but extra prayer is always helpful.

Wednesday we got to find out a lot of what our family was dealing with. It was a frustrating, saddening, and just plain stupid day. I am lucky I have some amazing people in our corner but I am still worried about what is going to happen. So, our church sometimes does these worship nights. It has been a while since they had one and what do you know on the day we needed it the most we were able to attend a worship night. Wednesday night was amazing and after the horrible day we had, it was wonderful to go and worship God.

So, what is worship? Worship to me is expressing my love for God. Okay, so I am going to get off topic here but it is for a reason, I promise. My pastor speaking is amazing. He is a wonderful speaker and he puts the Bible into terms I understand. He is also so funny. If this whole pastor thing doesn't work out I would recommend him becoming an comedian. For reals. I will admit I have never been able to read through the Bible. I can read all day but when I open the Bible I cannot make it more than a few pages. What I do read I would not be able to remember it for the life of me. I just get so confused and honestly, a bit bored. Being able to go to a church that the pastor can explain the Bible into terms I understand is crucial to me being close to God. Listening to Pastor Jeff speak is my second favorite part of going to church.

I have probably confused you. Second? You just went on about how much you enjoy it and how amazing it is. Yes, that is true but worship is my favorite part of church. We have an amazing band that is 100% volunteers that go to our church. They are not trying to make it big in the music world they just want to bring people closer to God through music. A night that focuses on my absolute favorite part of church was amazing.

I know a lot of my "friends" are atheist. I am mostly talking about my Facebook friends that's why the hyphens are there. I understand that. No, I wont try to force you to believe in God when you don't want to. I am telling you that you are missing out on something amazing by not having that faith in your life. You might think that you are whole, but there is a hole that God fills in you. I am very science minded. I love science and it has always interested me. I also like to think logically which sometimes it can interfere with my faith. The thing about faith that I am beginning to understand is it's a feeling. No, sometimes its not logical at all. That's why they call it faith instead of proof. It's a belief you have. It's something that carries its way through you. It is a part of you.

Okay, okay so I have gotten way off of topic. Geesh now back to what I was saying. Worship is my absolute favorite part of church. Our band plays current music and they are totally rock stars. Seriously, they are amazing! Real quick, you guys should tell me how many times I put amazing in this post. I think its my word of the day. Anyways, I love being able to sing my favorite songs worshiping the Lord. On Wednesday night after the horrible day a worship night was just what I needed. We took the two little ones to the nursery and we were able to take our oldest with us into the auditorium. They started out with a couple songs and then they blindfolded us.

Literally. They put blindfolds on our seat and had each of us put them on. They said you didn't have to if you didn't want to but all the cool kids were doing it. Haha I kid, I kid. They did want us to put it on but we didn't have to. They wanted us to wear blindfolds because some people are more worried about what others think instead of letting themselves worship God in the way they feel like they should. With everyone blindfolded that meant that nobody was there to look at you funny or say that you were being weird. Not that they were doing it anyways but sometimes you feel like they are. Honestly, I have never been one to put my hands up or bow down or do any of that. I have never gotten a strong urge to do that. Maybe, you do it out of respect for God but I feel like there should be emotion in it and not doing it because you feel like that is what your supposed to do. With that said, I cry during worship instead of that. A lot. I mean a lot, a lot. A lot more than I would like to admit. Seriously, almost every service. I think you guys get the point.

I just feel so much emotion during worship that I seriously cannot hold it in. So, I didn't put my hands up or anything like that but I did hold on to my daughters hand and I was able to shed some tears without being self conscious about it. Well, until we had to take off the blindfolds but luckily it was dark still in there. It was an amazing experience and I really felt closer to God.

Now let me tell you a little about my experience during worship. There are so many things I felt that night. I felt whole. I felt loved. I felt that everything was going to be okay. Whatever happens, it happens for a reason. For the first time that day I felt okay with that. I don't always feel okay with it but that night I did. I also felt breathless. I felt my heart racing. I felt it beating so hard I thought it was going to beat out of my chest. All of those in a good way. It's like kind of hearing someone you love say they love you for the first time. Or holding your baby for the first time that you felt kicking inside of you and you loved before you even met them. It is a beautiful feeling. Also I wanted to sing out. I wanted to sing as loud as I could and even on the new songs I have never heard before. I wanted to sing them. I wanted to sing them to God.  I felt completely whole.

I want everyone to be able to experience that. That is the whole reason why I say that you are missing out. You might not feel like you are. That is okay, no judgment here. I just know I was. I know that I have never had an experience like that. I didn't think I was missing out, but I was. Chances are even without thinking it you are missing out too. I have made mistakes in my life. I still make mistakes. I know no matter how many mistakes I make, I am loved. I will always be loved. Wednesday night, I felt that love.

I feel like there is so much more that I want to write but I still cannot put words to it. I hope if you are having a rough time in life that you can turn to God. If you have had a bad experience at church, then go find another one. Trust me if you you look you will find one that speaks to you. You don't have to have a church to find God but it is an amazing thing to find a church you feel a part of. The most important part is God wants a relationship with us, not a religion. Right now my church (Heritage Church in Sterling Heights, MI) is doing a service called no perfect people allowed. It is an amazing service so if you are in the area I highly suggest you check it out. You can also watch video's online at experienceheritiage.org.


Peace and Love,